Reflections this morning.

This morning studies:
Though have have much on my mind and have to vent at times
I still read my inspired faith, look up the bible verse, and study gods word.
This is what keeps me going my friends, shipmates and peeps.
I know the lord will not give me more than I can handle.
For he is truly good and he has plans for me.
I do much with the church being on the board of trustees as the secretary,
on the education committee doing children's time one Sunday a month,
helping with cleaning the toys at the Bethany Home,
and do readings to children.
Sometimes when I am in pain I feel that I scare people,
I get goofy at times, because I do not want to scream
but this makes me look childish.
I reflected on this and hope to do better.
Once a week I have a bible study here at my house
and learn from the those who teach me.
I swim and do my physical therapy,
get my massage once a month,
and strive to better myself.
I am slowly working to learn what I need to know for my 7th dan,
but only once a month. I do not want to over do it.
Those who I have frighten through my pain I apologize,
those children whom I inspired god be with you,
and those who pray for me I thank you.
I know I can't force people to like me,
but will always strive to inspire others;
and be less goofy as I control my pain.
Thank you always for being with me. 

I am in need of prayers!

Pray for me my friends.
My life is a turmoil.
Roof needs fixed still,
bills coming in,
got a loan to fix my car,
which I don't know how I am going to pay back,
have a social security disability meeting tomorrow
in which my lawyer is for the administration.
She is not on my side.
I fought for three years as a disabled veteran
to get my social security benefits.
Now they are slapping it back in my face.
The Social Security Admin said that college is like work, no it is not.
Work would not let me miss 10 days due to pain during winter classes, would not give me extra time on testing due to lack of focus caused from equilibrium imbalance, nor would they let me leave when feeling pain.
When I worked at Per Mar Security I had trouble staying awake
when taking my pain pills, and nearly lost the job.
My supervisor wrote a letter to the VA stating that I am unemployable.
But non of this matters to Social Security.
You have to have no limbs or be a minority to get benefits.
Pray for me and all I am going through.

What my life become inspite of being bullied!

Thought of what I became through being bullied:
Though I am different,
I overcame animosity.
I excelled in my life because of it.
Now have a masters degree, a high ranked black belt,
and served a long Naval career.
Retired from the Navy and became a Sea Cadet Officer.
Have a wife who works with the community, runs the food pantry food,
and works on the worship committee.
Have a son who has a academic scholarship at University of Illinois
to become an engineer; who excels in math, music, and arts.
Who likes to parkour and holds a black belt in karate.
Have another son who likes soccer and football.
But who gets bullied like I did.
He will overcome and excel; I have faith in that.
Now I work as the Board of Trustees Secretary for
Bethel Wesley United Methodist Church,
work with Children's Time once a month,
Sing in the Choir,
and teach an art class once a week.
I volunteer to help others overcome their animosity at the Bethany Home.
And I overcame the bullying in my life.
To all those who made fun of me,
called me names,
put me down,
and told me that I was not going to amount to much.
SCREW YOU!